I sit quietly and realize that God has been taking care of me this whole time, maybe not in luxurious ways, maybe not with an easy life. But through protection, provison, good health, surviving hard days and always having just enough to keep going.
You call her toxic now, but you met her when she was kind, open, and trusting. She became guarded because you kept hurting her, reactive because you kept crossing lines, and tired because she kept choosing you while you chose yourself. That wasn’t toxicity. That was damage.
Next August , 2027 at this exact time, you will be standing in the places you used to dream about. Living your most beautiful rich life. Send this to yourself.
You will heal. You will create again. You will wake up genuinely excited about your life. You will laugh again. You will get out of survival mode. You will trust yourself again. You will get your spark back. You will find your way back to yourself. You will. You will. You will.
All relationships can survive mistakes, but they cannot survive patterns. Repeated behavior isn't a mistake, it's a decision, apologies lose meaning when the actions never change.
That person you are missing right now is making a conscious decision every day to not have you in their life & that should be all the closure you need.
No revenge. I want you to remember that I was real with you the whole time. My intentions were genuine, my feelings were honest and my care was never fake. I may not have been perfect, but I never pretended to be something I wasn't. When everything else fades, I hope you remember that what gave you was real.