I just can't imagine a serious relationship for myself at the moment but want to start getting expirence and therefore maybe more confidence in myself. Also I'd like to get experience with a trusted person rather than a random woman.
Loved ones can only help so much. I've bounced it off them but I keep going back to where I screwed up. It's not a self harm situation but my brain is causing me major issues to the point where it's hurting me.