Oh wait! I forgot I make to much money for assistance from the state and my sons dad brings home 3,000 every two weeks and I don’t see a damn dime of it... 😔
The past 4 days I’ve worked a total of 48 hours and I’m exhausted... but why the fuck am i still crying that I can’t afford daycare, insurance, my car payment, or groceries to feed my son...
Just had a full blown episode of non stop crying and barely able to breathe all because I saw something earlier and it triggered me and opened my mind to replay memories over and over again all day today. No matter how hard I fought it. It finally got to me and broke me.
A worker at my neighborhood gas station told me I needed Jesus in my life. I laughed and said “Jesus loves me but sometimes he’s highly disappointed in my actions which is probably everyday��. Turned around and there was a old lady starring at me with the biggest eyes. 😂😂