it sounds dumb but it took me until 30 to internalize that people just say anything and it behooves you to ignore them and focus on what they do and how what they do makes you feel.
The key to life is just letting things be. You can’t sit around wondering why this happened or didn’t happen. It don’t matter. Make peace with situations & move on.
For once in my life, I would like to have something handed to me or easy to obtain. Having to get everything “out the mud” is painfully exhausting and I am extremely tired.