neish28

We need to rage through this life. xo

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

It’s got to be real. xo

https://t.co/AZkCcuwScH

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

Anytime he starts vaping he keeps me at arms length. He thinks I don’t know, but I can always tell. Affection isn’t as important as being high.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

It’s just a vicious cycle. Ending the year on a bad note, and the same lies.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

The love I feel for my husband, and kids is overwhelming. I know how blessed I am.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

I’m still caught off guard and so deeply hurt when he responds the way he does. Like when will this change? I need a partner, support, not someone who makes tough situations even harder.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

If you hate repeating yourself you should pick your head up out of your phone, and turn it my way so I can hear you.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

What lingers is he has no problem saying the meanest things that pop into his head, but has the hardest time, and will not apologize for saying them. To the point of pretending like he doesn’t even remember saying them. I’m defeated, and depleted.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

It all started because he spilt his beer.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

I thought he was my soulmate, who’d love me unconditionally, but it turns out, he doesn’t care.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

You showcase your immaturity by the way you articulate your feelings.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

When the person who you need to be able to talk about the most important things with are incapable of doing so, what are you to do? How am I supposed to navigate with my partner when everything is an inconvenience?

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

Healthy love takes responsibility

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

What I feel doesn’t seem to matter. He’s ok with letting me feel indifferent.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

Greeted with,”What?” so excited to maybe spend some quiet time together, but the excitement is quickly squashed. No “hi, honey.” Or “hey you got out.” Or “I’m happy to see you.” Anything would be better, than, “what?”

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

I try to discuss how I’m feeling, but I get eye rolls, or “ok, I I don’t want to hear it.” We never talk. If he doesn’t like what I’m saying it’s a lecture or unwanted advice. 45 mins at the dinner table is enough “us” time. What’s the point anymore?

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

I used to look forward to Sundays, now my anxiety grasps my throat not knowing how one person‘s attitude or demeanor will be like that day.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

I will no longer attempt to mend. I will no longer initiate communication. He doesn’t care anyway.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

Looking forward to that Harvest Moon

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

I’m done trying to communicate with someone who cares more about being high than they do about the state of their marriage or partner. I’m done being pushed away when trying to mend something they started. I’m done.

[neish28 @juicebox2828]

When you get sober
Will you get kinder?