Perhaps this year isn't about becoming anything at all. Maybe instead, it's about slowly unbecoming all the things which no longer align with you, and finding peace in the quiet return to your authentic self.
One thing about adulthood that way too many people learn way too late (and have no choice but to learn the hard way): you have to be deliberate/proactive about everything. For the first time in your life, you can't be passive participant in anything.