playing apex actually ruined my body, i lived in fight or flight for years and it detrimentally affected my health.
it was all tied to needing to win, the mindset of wanting to win so badly and the fear of losing.
becoming immersed in the game with that mindset literally would pull the blood from my extremities, make my heartbeat increase and cause a fight or flight state.
the only way to change it, is to play the game for fun.
you can still be competetive in a play for fun mindset, but i can garantee you, once you flip into this mindset, you dont care about the game as much and you might find you actually fall out of love with the game.
because there is nothing really driving you anymore.
i played for 6 years in a state of fight or flight, changed my mindset to play for fun in order to look after my body and then just stopped playing the game because there was no longer a drive.
it puts things into perspective.
I am entering a level of consciousness that I have worked so extremely hard for.
I am finally experiencing reality on a level that is completely authentic.
I have stripped away everything that isn’t serving my highest purpose.
I am the greatest version of myself.