˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗

personal diary. she/they ‘00 ❥—— mostly mentally ill ramblings, minors pls dnf 🔞

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

this is a diet pepsi fan page

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i want to become sick enough that people care

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i might be doing the worst i ever have. struggling to work, consumed with self hatred every day, frustrated that my pain has never been enough to motivate me. scared of the future and passively suicidal. tomorrow i will change. i will be relentless in becoming who i’m meant to be

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i genuinely don’t have a choice anymore i have to get my shit together or die

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i feel a deep sense of shame every day for the life i live and the thoughts i think

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@ttattooedfairy i just turned 26, high sw, neurodivergent, hoping to go back to school for anthro this year<3 always down to make friends !

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i really wish i had some sort of sense of self. i get jealous of people who know who they are

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

everything is bad always :(

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

@dietfume

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i hope this side of the internet is well<3
i’ve been feeling paralyzed in life and it’s not a good time to be unmotivated. i feel completely out of control so a big part of me wants to commit to starving again. it feels like the only thing i can do rn to make myself proud

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

@st4rvingpeach @lightest_angel i just turned 26 it’s getting scary out here

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i am so embarrassing UUUGGGHH

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@babywh4l3 i’m glad other people feel the same, it’s very much an inside thought LOL

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

my toxic trait is that i lowkey love the scars i’ve been getting by accidentally burning myself at work. i missed having visible scars on my arms and that’s shameful to say at 25 years old but it’s true

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i tracked my cals for nearly all of December and was excited to start the new year strong, but i’m literally so poor right now it’s not worth it to track anything. i’m surviving off of omad bagel & cream cheese, buttered pasta, or discounted food from work😭

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

the “what i used to eat when i was fat” videos genuinely make me upset because i have never had eating habits as bad as the ones they describe and i’m STILL fat😭

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i should have just fucking ended it back then.

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

had holiday celebrations this weekend and ate like 2000 calories each day and i’m so sad about it bc i’ve been maintaining all week. i want to start starving myself again this isn’t fast enough for meeee

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not now baby, mommy is on edtwt

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i want to be underweight one day and i need to make myself believe i can make it there

[˗ˏˋ juno ˎˊ˗ @junotxt]

i’ve been weighing & tracking again, eating around 1500, sometimes less, sometimes more. so far it’s been 2 weeks and i’m over 10lbs down!! this feels sustainable to me, i’ve been cooking so much good food and not feeling too hungry or too full :D