Pengen jajan dan beranin diri buat minta ke mama and she said, “Kerja enggak,mau jajan,” while I’m in my room struggling to find a job, my Instagram feed is filled with job postings, and I’ve been struggling with depression for years. Sometimes I’m just so tired of feeling like
In another life gue pengen bisa maki orang yang nyakitin gue, gamau jadi orang yg gaenakan, bisa speak up kalo gue gasuka sama hal itu dan bisa ngata-ngatain orang tanpa rasa "kasihan"
Jam set 2 malem tbtb ngerasa sedih, kenapa gw tumbuh jadi people pleaser, spend so much time taking care of others, always making sure everyone else is okay, but somehow never learning how to take care of myself
Nantii beli gamis yaa, tanpa harus susah payah nabung diantara kepentingan lainnya, mikirin ekonomi keluarga, nanti beli gamis yang disuka, yang bagus kainnya, ga perlu lihat harga, ga perlu ngemis ngemis sama keluarga, nantii yaaa :)
Funfact:
Ketika depresi, paksa mandi dan lamain durasi di dalam kamar mandi nya (bebersih smpe ngosek seluruh kamar mandi). Beres mandi, pake pakaian bagus dan parfum yg menenangkan, lalu bongkar isi lemari danrapihin daleman lemari serapih mungkin.
Tertanda, survivor.