have any of you ever been so horrifically mentally unwell that you constantly switch between wanting to tell nobody ab how bad it is and wanting to beg someone for literally any kind if help💀
The fact that i cant relate to the other autistic ppl that always got told to be quiet or less excited as a kid because all it took was being told i was 'being annoying' once for me to squash down that side of me and be in silent discomfort for the rest of my life