Cleaned my drawer...
The part that scares me the most is that its prolly not even a half of what i own in general.... but yeah after 7 years of sh addiction... kinda okkk.. #sh#shed#shtなりきりさんがrtしてくれてそれを見たshtなりきりさんがきっとフォローしてくれる
I wish I just did what i wanted when i wanted and didnt regret about it years later. I wish I just stabbed myself back when i actually wanted it. Now suicide fells useless. Cus my instincts kick in too well. Just god, make a car ran over me or smh. I cant. #suicidetwt
I rememeber the first time I actually felt suicidal. Like first first. Didnt know that was even a thing. I did know what murder was so i just kinda invaded the meaning. Havent felt that much push to commit ever since. But the wish of not being alive is always there #suicidetwt
Sometimes I regret pulling though those hard years of wanting to kms. Cus in the end, i wish i just tried. I dont care about the result. Id much rather be dead. Its just the same old shit. I was doomed from the start. Lil me u should have died. #suicidetwt
What i did to deserve such a horrible victim minded mother. My birthday started an hour ago and its already fucking ruined cus I didnt want a kiss on my cheek. Fucking novelty. Yet she started sobbing about it and saying she birthed me and this is how i repay her.
So. Im pissed as FUCK. stepped on the scale today and it showed 40.8kg. I was like insanely happy and went to grab my phono to take pic. Step on the scale with my phone amd it shows 43.7kg. Like no way? I place it away and step myself AND ITS STILL 43.7KG FUCKING MURDER ME #edtwt