sam

lost 31.kgs but back to square one, 300+ day recovered bulimic and high sw || vent

[BYRON @androcygne]

You are 25 and talking to Chat GPT about edtwt.

[sam @kalskyo]

didnt sleep well at all, why cant i just not love my best friend

[sam @kalskyo]

gonna go shopping after work and get some bits to start making the foods i ate when i was restricting and it WORKING, hate how i look so fucking much

[milo Ი𐑼 @herc4ls]

misa being 36kg and 152cm is something i think about constantly

[sam @kalskyo]

just get over it all

[sam @kalskyo]

i have a pit in my stomach and i just feel so sick,, i want them to move bc it’s what they want to do. i just don’t want to lose my closest friend

[sam @kalskyo]

i just feel helpless. like there’s nothing i can do and i’m really happy for them because this is what they want, but i’m just a friend and i really shouldn’t be this upset

[sam @kalskyo]

mostly just coming back to vent a bit

[sam @kalskyo]

this is arguably my closest friend

[sam @kalskyo]

my friend who i convinced myself i don’t have feelings for anymore may be moving an hour train journey away and i just want to curl up and die

[sam @kalskyo]

weighing mtself when i get home snr getting back to ti

[sam @kalskyo]

i’m so exhuasted

[sam @kalskyo]

again i felt like i spent today (my first day off in a week) doing shit i didnt want to do

[sam @kalskyo]

i dont have a day off until friday

[sam @kalskyo]

but now if i dont go after the manager chat has mentioned the safe being £10 down it’s going to probably look suspicious

[sam @kalskyo]

i dont want to go to work tomorrow, i’m so fucking tired