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so THIS happened.

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

my brain has ran all scenarios possible of me just eating regularly ehm overeating actually since is the only thing i know what to do and i just keep falling apart. The dread and misery just take over every single time basically my brain functions only out of guilt and shame

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

it didna work

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

first day trying counting calories in my head lmao this usually ends up in a binge but whateva

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

i wish food wasn’t a thing and i could just photosynthesize myself with the sun light damn it

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

it looks disgusting btw if this was one of the things i could chose to stop fully forever i would but i am so used to it ..

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

litoll compilation of times ive made my lips bleed this might come off as attention seeking (sadly true() but sometimes i just can’t stop i literally have done this like 4 times at work nd my friend my mom has told me to stop bruh

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

first day trying counting calories in my head lmao this usually ends up in a binge but whateva

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

i don’t even know what to do with my life like it’s been months in this existential crisis that i don’t even care abt losing weight anymore i just don’t want to go back to hw

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

i am literally gifting myself a coffee machine i cant stand this ass coffees from the store anymore

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

i wsnt to buy a coffee machine i think that would fix most of my problems really

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

just saw my grandma pour straight up oil to the food (WHEN IT DEFINETELY DIDNT NEED IT) i just dont get it whats her obsession with those huge serving sizes and wantin us to stay fat wth this is not even my ed talking everyone agrees omg i cant stand her sometimes

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

@556666S besides that i actually enjoy weighing and tracking and doing portion control and cooking omg i love it i wish i lived aloooone

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

i fucking love restricting/tracking cals brooo ,,it’s not easy tho. But the way it makes me enjoy food guilt free plus your body is kinda hungry so it just makes food way tastierrrr omg

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

ITS SO DIFFICULT NOT WANTING TO STUFF MY FACE WITH FOOD AT NIGHTIME OMFGGGGGGGGGG WHATADAHELLLLL

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

@556666S i hate it because i live with my family so they see me weighing everthing and they always commenting on how much i eat or how little i hate it u don’t know how mentally exhausting is being hungry and can’t eat cause they always have smth to say ugh

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

@rod20681118 idk what dat means

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

i am bmi 30

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

can someone tell me what bmi do i loooookk pls

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

@notnewh noo not at all ive known i have to lift weight to at least tighten it up a little i actually just started but it wont ever look as i wish it to look because ive lost 30 kilos already loose skin is guaranteed 🥲🥲

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

hey❤️…. so what is THIS
i just 🥲 can’t

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

@XxcoldbonesxX sorry if rude but what was your hw? i have the same height as you

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

@babyhyukaaaa i literally lost weight with those same exact stats omg are we twins

[katarina დ 0/40 @kat4morant]

what would you do if you lost all the fucking progress you made i gained 10 kilos someone just end it right naw