Katlego

I'm an undergraduate at UJ with the aim of being the best Structural engineer in the world. I write music, poems, I can draw, I can stream music as a reactor.

[YOHAMI @YOHAMI]

" I want want the validation that I did something correct because somehow I don' t believe my own assessment whether it is correct or wrong"

Yeah makes sense.

That's child looking up confused to Mother and Father, while being misled and receiving intermittent rewards.

Plus Mother distrusts Father. But she does not understand shit, she just "knows something is wrong", or, female NO-Mind, so she'll put the finger around until she finds something that hurts and call it a bug. "Hey I found the issue, I can hurt you"

And you think that's valuable information.

Or.

You're finding malignant authorities and getting attached to their insights. As if what they are saying is valuable. As if there's a message.

And there is.

But the message is you're an idiot trying to feed from the pain evil itself is causing you.

The message is your weakness is trying to extract love from aggression.

The message is you're trying to love - wrong.

Dismantle this:

" I want want the validation that I did something correct because somehow I don' t believe my own assessment whether it is correct or wrong"

Say this out loud, your own state will tell you where the shit is hiding:

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- I do not want the validation.

- What I did correct / incorrect is competence and the result is factual and unemotional.

- I trust my own judgement fully.

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This is not an affirmation that you tell yourself until you're convinced.

Say the words, from the self, into the world, and see where they create dissonance.

Find the wound. Find the hole that the aggressor is still exploiting.

Kill - it.

Kill the transaction.

[Katlego @kat67730]

@leptokinesis 🤍

[YOHAMI @YOHAMI]

What is the real you.

The one without external interference.

So, relax.

Who you are when distending into the arms of a loving mother. Feel it. Get small. There - feel home? find it more.

You're not done.

What's the real you.

The one without external obstacles.

What is left - your own potential.

So, focus.

Who you are when aided by the power of a rightful, true king, with all the tools and resources on your side, in front of the horizon, full of treasure.

The son of your father. Feel it. Get bigger, expand. Feel your kingdom - find it more.

What is the real you.

You.

Your full acceptance, distended.

Your full potential, embodied.

The rock, and the river.

[Katlego @kat67730]

@leptokinesis Then you'll start frying everyone when you take the mic😂😂😂

[Katlego @kat67730]

@leptokinesis 😂😂😂 Lmao

[Katlego @kat67730]

@chiefofstaffZA They ain't they wife material is that what you want us to say mxm.

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI But then I couldn't cause I didn't know how I got there. My family was really stressed the most, I was there from mid Dec to mid Jan. So since I wasn't able to meditate properly I was just scared. So I want to ask when I go back to meditating is there a chance of going back ?

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI I saw a post where you spoke about having to experience Kundalini awakening and how it affected you. I want to know, were meditating towards it or it just happened?
Is there a specific meditation to trigger it?
Did you return back to meditating after it happened?

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI And I just never even knew that there's such a thing called Kundalini awakening. I just had memories of everything and everyday I would just try to understand. At the same time I wanted to return to the state cause that was an amazing feeling I've experienced.

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI Warning . In that July that's when I started to drop things for the switch to TG. And I continued to meditate the entire year with no weed. What's the win, what's the want ,what's the maximum expansion, rising the energy and letting go in nothing and I continously dropped things

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI Nah he didn't give me the weed it was just an assumption of why I was like that. My brother even believed them. See it cannot be weed, in 2024 from August till Dec I was on weed daily cause handle heartbreak. And 2025 I continued with the habit until July after I had an academic

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI But I simply understood what I spoke about but yeah I was on my own world I guess. My friends told my brother about what happened, and one my friend initiated a diagnosis that it was Cannibas Induced psychosis, cause I was smoking weed at the time.

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI I had insane visions/dreams, and at some point I called myself God due to what happened on those visions. And a lot the visions I typed them out how I don't know cause I was asleep. I still got some of them I'll share. Even the conversations I had with people were just different

[YOHAMI @YOHAMI]

"What is the truth and how do you make sure it's the truth"

With or without using God as a word?

Perception.

Your soul is part of reality.

What blocks perception is misaligned dominance trying to distort what you see for self benefit - distortion as self regulation.

Accepting your perception brings you back to the truth and alignment with reality because you're made of the same substance.

Accepting what is - not what you think of it.

Letting go of your attachment to your own deviations.

Letting go - surrender - to truth - God.

It's an awakening from the dream of your self made bullshit.

Or just an awakening.

The result is wisdom, coming from the alignment.

So even if you're reactive, the reaction is true.

So how do you make sure it's true?

The question already means that you forgot and are in a dream again.

The tendency is to start drawing notes and comparing and recollecting and self debating and inquisitioning etc - which just means dreaming more.

The only way is to wake up again.

Look again, perceptive again, surrender again, let go again.

Enter reality again.

Ego death again.

Meet God again.

"How can you be suuuureeeee"

The question itself comes from a place that prefers to believe instead of knowing.

You don't have to believe anything.

Wake up and look.

Again.

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI Yo🫡

[Katlego @kat67730]

@YOHAMI @IrrenWirr @Matheus27020462 What do you mean by reset?
Dropping everything, the need to be manipulative through meditation ?