Tried the fandom route in the past. Met some nice people but I also got exposed to too many personalities and ideas I just straight up do not vibe with, groupthink, high school hierarchies and dynamics, all to get some surface level interactions. Shit felt like a toxic second job
Peaceful and meditative tbh. Have 2 separate friends with aligned interests to discuss some of my faves with at length. Then I'll post fanart without interacting with anyone. Sometimes I'll get a nice comment that makes me feel understood. And that's really all I need to be happy
Me watching the sun rise for drawing reference cause I forgot what the vibe is like and instead of helping me it just shattered the much prettier image I had in mind
one time i went to a conference that had lots of scandinavian queer historians and they all expressed exasperation at having to talk about and cite american history in order to prove the relevance of their work on their countries. changed how i think about a lot of that stuff ngl
Found out recently that sea urchins have their spawning schedule naturally synced with the lunar cycle and you gotta harvest em during the full moon bc that's when they're the meatiest and most scrumptious and I can't stop thinking about it like why is no one talking about this
Everybody who has seen this movie glazes this room so much I feel like an anomaly for thinking this is a terrible place to live in. Like all the flashy clutter and red walls (even in the bathroom omg) would do things to my mental health