Kayla🦋

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

with the way I’ve isolated myself from everything these last 5 months, I feel empty and just need a friend. my heart is screaming for some kind of connection to feel normal again. all I feel is grief and pain from the empty space my mom left.😕

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

Coming up on 5 months without my mom and I swear it gets harder everyday. My mind is still in denial and I’m still stuck in the same place I was when I lost her. Still struggling, but pushing through it. 😕

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

having to break the news to my dad that his dad passed away today pushed me down a spiral of grief. I’m tired of all of these losses, my family needs a break 😭😭😭

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

1 week without my car because the transmission decided to kill itself and it’s still in the shop 😤

[♀ amanda @AGEOFKlSZKA]

flags at half mast to mourn some nazi influencer but not to mourn the children that were just shot at school in colorado

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

day 2 without my mom 😔 she was only 51 and didn’t deserve this 😭

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

lost both my dog and my mom in the same year. exactly 5 months apart from each other. can’t take another loss this year. 🥺

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

can’t fully wrap my head around the fact my mom is receiving hospice care and we’re just waiting for her to take her last breath. I was just making plans with her a few weeks ago. I hate this. 🥺

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

this is literally killing me, I feel like I’m losing myself with her 🥺🥺🥺

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

waiting for my mom to text me like she always did saying she’s home from the hospital but this time she won’t be going home 🥺🥺🥺

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

genuinely feel like I’m suffocating right now. 🫥

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

all I want is to tell my mom I finally made an appointment to see a therapist for my mental health and now I can’t. I hate this 🥺

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

My mom was supposed to be seeing her grandson start kindergarten on Tuesday but instead we’re witnessing her in her final days of life. Praying for a miracle but preparing for the worst. 😕😕😕

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

bought my dog her own car seat for car rides and she’d rather sit in my lap. spoiled her for 7 years too long 😤

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

new ethel cain album really pulling me down today

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

car and windshield for reference 🤬😡

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

got a new (to me) car on Saturday only for my windshield to get chipped/cracked 3 days later

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

just have to keep reminding myself she’s better now, she’s free. never felt this type of pain and it’s killing me 😕

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

never getting through this😕 this was so much more traumatic than it should’ve been and it’s killing me. I’ll love you forever😭😭😭

[Kayla🦋 @kaylanelsonx]

can’t keep myself together today. I know she’ll be better off but it’s killing me 😕