I'm a type C person I can wake up at 5am. I can wake up at 1pm.
I can work for 15 hrs straight, or I can do nothing for 3 days. text back in 0.5 secs or 2 weeks later. love being alone but hate feeling lonely. overthink everything, then end up saying it is what it is.
Call me lazy, but I don’t wanna side hustle, second job, part time job, to make content, none of that shit. I work full fucking time & I should make enough money to cover my basic needs.
You should study what makes you defensive. The topic you avoid, the joke that irritates you, the question that feels insulting, the feedback you instantly reject. Defensiveness is usually the guard dog sitting in front of a weakness you have not trained yourself to face.
Making it out of every situation without a kid so you can never concern yourself with that nigga and his life again and you can start a fresh and anew >>>
My therapist told me
"We need to talk about the trauma of being the 'good kid' who grew up to be the exhausted adult. You spent your entire childhood chasing gold stars, keeping the peace, and making sure you never caused a single inconvenience for the adults around you. You became hyper-vigilant about reading the room, managing everyone else's moods, and burying your own needs so deep you forgot they existed. Now, you're an adult who physically panics at the thought of disappointing a stranger, handles conflict like a death sentence, and feels guilty just for resting. You weren't actually an 'easy' child-you were just a child who learned very early that your safety depended on your compliance. It is time to stop auditioning for everyone else's approval and start learning who you are when you aren't trying to save the day.