regressing, people whove been attractive all their lives might have it easier because they know people are gonna come along and they know how to use their looks to their advantage. it has its own setbacks but god sometimes i wish i was just a black fog or something
i feel like one of the downsides of growing up ugly is that once you are considered conventionally attractive or average there are a certain rules you need to follow to protect yourself but you cant grasp them because then it feels like youre gonna push away people if you dont
want to be hit on- theres a handful of friendships i cant count which are completely platonic and i keep making make friends who clearly dont care about me. im thinking of cutting off all men from my life. i dont like how im perceived