KC🏳️‍🌈

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

It finally hit me tonight, my baby is getting older & I am terrified. I’ve been a single mom for 5 years now just him and me.

The thought of him starting Kinder gives me so much anxiety w/ how the world is today & I have to figure it out alone, by myself.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

You can talk whatever shit you feel you need to say about me but bring my son into the situation and I’m done 💯 there is no coming back from that.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

I am now at the point where I feel like I will never be enough for my family.

They tell me they love me and if I asked for help they would. But to post about me or talk about me with others I don’t know if they would at this point. I’m not enough.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

I can’t keep my place clean enough, I’m always irritated or angry, I can’t find a routine for myself or my son, and I’m afraid no one will love me because I isolate myself and have these things going on. I’ve never been suicidal until now…

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

I know I’m a good mom but I am not perfect. The older I have gotten the more I have realized how bad my mental health is. I did not realize until after having my son and had postpartum depression and not wanting to take care of myself or my son because I was out of it.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

And now with the way the economy is and having to be the only income to keep us afloat and being a single parent with no co parent to help. The depression and anxiety I have now is very severe.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

Merry Christmas~ Please take the Christmas gifts and accept my invitation. -For real? -Sure, only 2 steps to take the gift and help me get mine!
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[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

Being alone in life is the worst feeling… but it might turn out to be the best for me😔

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

If you gonna hit a man you better take it like a man💯 female or not!

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

Once I became a single mom that’s when I realized how lonely I really am.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

I know I’m 4/20 friendly but I find it very unattractive and childish when someone puts pictures of them smoking on a dating app

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

#NewProfilePic

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

Apparently I’m good enough to fuck but not good enough for a long term relationship… shits getting old.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

Every time I’m at work I miss my sons face🥺

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

Looking back at old pictures of myself in high school and I wish could just give the old me a hug and remind her she doesn’t need anyone and prepare her for what is going to happen😔

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

My grandma is a pro lifer but even she finds everything about abortion lately very extreme.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

I just want to be wanted. Not forced to be around someone because we’re family or coworkers. I wish I could be someone’s first choice.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

I just want someone that won’t take my kindness and loyalty for granted, is that too much to ask.

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

I’m so tired. I’m tired of pretending I’m okay and that I’m strong. I’m tired of people expecting me to be okay and know I can handle it on my own. I can’t take a shower or put away clothes or even put clean sheets on my bed because I’m so tired😞

[KC🏳️‍🌈 @kcpool567]

The worst feeling is not feeling good enough. I wasn’t good enough for someone to be loyal to me. I’m not good enough to have friends to go out with. I’m not a good enough mother.