Insecureties are such weird things. Always there and always haunting, yet accepted. I have many insecureties that make me dought myself feel insufitiant or just tired. However I can't let it stop me from improving to prove I can be better some day.
I thought my break would give me some time to rest and gather my thoughts. However it has just made my insecurities about streaming even worse, and partly worsening my mental health.
But in a way this does remind me why I started streaming and will keep on doing my best.
I worry I am not a good enough streamer, trying to juggle my everyday life, with streaming, and creating my own assets and emotes. I know my streams doesn’t look the best and are mediocre, but I am trying my best to make it as enjoyable as possible for everyone.
@yu_lawrance The problem is some of my friends know nothing about me because I usually only sit and listen to others stories, or I just talk about random stuff, my friends that have known me for about a year know barely anything about me… And I don’t know made me think
Being a good listener means I usually just listen to my other friends talking, but it also means I know more about them than they know about me… I can’t help but feel like my life is just so average compared to others. I wish could be more than just a good listener.
What I hope to achieve with this is to be able to formulate myself better, be mindful of my words, and just generally be able to condense my thoughts into shorter texts. But I also hope it is somewhat positive and makes people connect with it.
I am scared to post here… But here goes anyway, it’s always scariest to take the first step, but I am writing this because I want to start posting random short texts whenever. But I am scared and unsure about myself but here goes anyways. They will be short but hopefully fun.