wait im so fucking happy rn i js remembered i cut my hair and it loooks so pretty afkghjg i love my hair so much i get to show it off tomorrow and i took a shower too so my hair is all shiny and soft and pretty
mom pls talk to me again i swear i wont mess up again ill even let u beat my ass again i js wanna talk to u i love u mom idk why i ever thought i didnt.
at this point i think ill be niceer towards my abuser than my mom. theyre practically the same person atp. My mom promised she and my dad wouldn't beat me again but the second i do smt they dont like they beat my ass. at least my abuser was sweet to me. i miss that so much
the only reason i havent blocked everyone and killed myself already is bc i take some joy in tweeting on twitter and i basically use it as my diary since my mom keeps stealing and reading my diaries irl
i need my friends to text me bro cause all my irls forgot about me and ignore my texts and they promised to keep in touch over summer. someone is going to die and its probably me
arguably the worst part of being debilitatingly mentally ill or mentally ill in general is how difficult it is to talk about in detail without sounding like a complete and utter goofball. yeah the macarena triggers my cptsd are you for eel right now are you sealrious
i js need to stay awake for 6 more hours to bring me to a total of 47 hours without sleep, then i can sleep on the ride there, which means ill get about an hour of sleep which is enough for me to function with.