From this post on I will be sharing my thoughts here as if it’s my personal diary. Could be real, could get ugly and could be pointless.
I’m trying to find multiple ways to express myself before my last straw so this is it. ❤️
Random note:
Silence feels so unusual for me now, but I’m realizing it’s one of the best things that’s happened to me. I’m no longer chasing chaos, and my mind feels so much fresher and clearer because of it. I can actually hear myself again.
I think one of the saddest things about me is how long I can carry emotional pain without anybody noticing.I will still laugh. Still answer texts.Still show up.Still make people feel loved. All while quietly falling apart in ways nobody thinks to ask about.
I just want a love that is pure and sweet. One where I never have to second guess anything. One where the love shared is an active choice made every day.
Some people master the art of pretending to be “light” while moving with the darkest energy. I just pray God keeps healing them, because that mask won’t last forever.
@AfsaRosette a bittersweet lesson it's been painful & helpful for me to learn:
you've been choosing people who don't value you because you don't & haven't been valuing yourself
@LouisPisano Nah I will say something about the ppl in this club is fucked. They’re all SO rude and disrespectful! And they touch and push ppl for absolutely no reason
Lord, please do it for me.
Open the doors I can’t see.
Heal what I don’t speak about.
Guide me where I’m meant to go.
Provide what I’m too tired to chase.
Strengthen what’s broken inside me.
Amen.