Kels

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

if i read the bible more, is it still okay to have gay sex?

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

they’ve tried to erase all the good i’ve ever done. they almost convinced me.

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

tried to kill myself and like everything else in my pathetic life, i failed at it.

fitting.

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

convinced myself i must have cheated on her and forgot to deserve this amount of hatred.

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

would pay someone to beat the shit out of me at this point

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

wish i could live outside of my head

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

fuck i miss them.

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

my best friends forever

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

nothing gets better

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

all i do now is hurt.
i barely eat.
i go days without sleeping.
i cry in the middle of public spaces.
i tried to kill myself.
i’m so fucking lost.

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

💔

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

i fucked up, and i hate myself for it.

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

just wanna hold my dogs so bad

[Kels @kelseyuhm]

i know i became a shell, someone who wasn’t happy - but it wasn’t her that made me unhappy. it was my own head

and now i’ve lost her, because she couldn’t deal with me anymore; my lack of hope, sense of future.

i deserve this.