I am a failure, I am stupid, I am ugly, I am unloved, I am a loser forever, I am finished, I am unlucky, I am bad, I am devastated, I am broken, I am hated, I never want to be me
when i say “i self sabotage” and they think i’m talking about relationships, but i purposely watch sad tiktoks, listen to sad songs, reread old messages just to remind myself of what’s wrong with me
i don’t wanna pick up the phone, i don’t wanna make any plans, i don’t wanna do anything. i don’t wanna eat, i can’t sleep properly, my entire rhythm is out of balance. i just want a break from my own thoughts, scrutinizing every single little thing i’ve ever done throughout