@nightscaper2000 When I was suffering from a debilitating hand injury and shared thoughts about unaliving myself online, she said I couldn't talk about it as doing so would reflect poorly on her.
She promised she'd pay me for collaborations and then never did.
@nightscaper2000 I'm sorry to hear about what you went through as well. The control, manipulation and fear that they instilled is awful. Hoping sharing this helps you heal and that things will look up for you.
@nightscaper2000 When I couldn't type due to my hand pain, she grew upset that I couldn't indulge her in fetish conversations.
Her overbearing attempt to control me is also why I left neoy2k communities. For years I suffered quietly knowing she was badmouthing me to everyone she could control.
@telefontelaviv especially true amongst the former gifted kid undiagnosed-adhd-trauma-leading-to-deep-ego-insecurities genre of creative (most of the greats)
@telefontelaviv hard agree in that my daily life is an unending stream of internally-generated stress & anxiety, so it's pretty calming to have it diverted to an inconsequential external source for 2h15m
@telefontelaviv having only been to the bay area post exodus "it smells like linkedin everywhere" really distills what i experienced
all that was there was expensive houses & empty streets