If some random stranger is accompanying me for a walk and there is some corner coming up down the road .
i would walk really really fast and slow down just to create that mysterious aura
There is this youtube ad that i used to find hilarious but now it is making me anxious.
So it goes like - what you do ?
: Well, I am an AI tool/Chat gpt expert. earning 40LPA
Initially I was like : yeah, right .
Now : Oo shit, she might be fucking right
The CSE urge to join META, to know
Kya Maal phook ke Insta ke algo likh rhe hai.
Bc jo socha , bola bhi nhi sirf Socha uske reels kaise aa rhe hai feed pe
Dropping the keys for the locks now will remain locked forever and i find myself staring at those locked doors. Wondering what would have made me if I was true to my nature .
Writing is my superpower and the first evil it will destroy is me .
And i am afraid of that
I am afraid to pick pen and paper because this time it will get attached to my soul and mind . I won't be able to shed it.
This time I will have all my answers , I will know the path and i shall know my duty.
The clarity will break me and I don't know I am able to handle it
Because this time i can't go back , Everything will be in order and the stairs will be visible.
I afraid to write because I cannot deceive myself on paper.
That's one of the greatest strength i consider I have.
And it will be so bad ? Yes because then the world will see me
As someone that they cannot fully understand and i will be outcasted.
All these years I tried to fit in, but the pain of ignorance is now unbearable.
It hurts that I have no true thoughts these days like one I used to have when I was a kid.
Keeping up with the crowd , i kept
No one is busy . No One . For some reason we all decided that everyone is busy in their lives and stopped talking .
Because there is nothing much to talk about .
Everyone knows someway other guy is struggling and you don't want to disrupt the metamorphosis. So we just stopped.
I know it doesn't make much sense to you but i don't want WFH . My home is actually very far from here .
So My office is my home , there are people that feels like home because we share food , laughs , tension.
It hurts but I made my peace with it
I didn't even knew it's humanely possible to sleep this much.
Woke up at 12 - freshed up - made lunch - slept again - woke up at 7
I don't even know where the fuck is my Saturday
what's even scarier is when you like them on purpose because you know it will land on certain individual's feed.
You are technically playing 4D chess or is it just me?
Its funny how we are kind of connected in a hive mind. All the reels that you like shows up on my doorstep and mine shows on yours
But the scariest part is that the reels that you don't like because you can't get caught liking it