Most of the information in the google doc that I found is either conjecture regarding my finances/employment status at any given place, or flat-out untrue.
I genuinely don't know what you guys want from me at this point. You CAN contact the charity to verify the donations. I've done all I can do to prove that I've actually donated the money. I do not have it. Apparently there is a google doc that is extremely invasive &
digs into my past, completely without context, uses names of people I've been close to, my deadname, my parent's names, my coworkers names, and at this point I think I have to seek legal protections. Whoever is doing this has no goal other than to cause hurt.
furthermore, i will no longer be accepting tattoo clientele from any socmed. at this point, i can't trust that people actually want to book with me, i am afraid that people just want my contact info to harass me further & abuse me. so. its been real!
i handled everything really badly. i have reasons, but not excuses. i don't know that there's any legitimate reason or excuse for threatening me through every avenue possible while breaking every privacy boundary i have.
y'all are welcome to follow me on insta as it'll be my only semi-active socmed, but there is no reason for the abuse. i am sorry to those who were concerned and i legitimately sent every screenshot i had to sam, who i guess did not want to post them or deal with it which i get.
additionally, I'm abandoning twitter. In the past month, i've had random google voice numbers sending me threatening texts, I've had people send threatening snail mail to my home, and i've had people send me my home address from sock puppet emails telling me to watch my back.
i thought that sam would have posted these, but i guess not. the money was donated. i added a bit extra to cover fees. i did what i could. it's verifiable through the charity. the previous donation was flagged as fraudulent, that's why it didn't process & i never noticed it.
@umulata1@ManicZebra it's a matter of respect. You guys worked really dang hard on your pieces and I flubbed the hell out of it. I am fully responsible and I'm very sorry for being inconsiderate and thoughtless.
@umulata1@ManicZebra Definitely. It's one of those things where the guilt/dread of having done something really stupid just kind of eats away at you, I think that's partially what made me just kind of ~dissociate~ and it just... left my mind. I'm really sorry, you're right -
@umulata1@ManicZebra Again, I am taking full responsibility for you guys being upset at me and not having answers sooner. I'm really sorry and I am definitely not going to take on an endeavor like this again. You guys are right to be upset, and I'm not going to try and argue against that.
@umulata1@ManicZebra I'm sorry, I really don't have an excuse or reason for this other than I am really bad at time. I take full responsibility for being so late with everything. I'm sorry, and you guys are right to be mad/upset.
@adhdedteach@ManicZebra I definitely get your anger. I apologize. I have no plans to try to do any other projects like this in the future, it's just way out of my wheelhouse and I was dead wrong thinking i'd be able to pull it off.
@adhdedteach@ManicZebra Yeup, that is 1000% on me. I just... got way in over my head. I 100% accept that I'm dumb af and am in no way arguing with ya. I am very sorry! Again, you're right to be upset!
@adhdedteach@ManicZebra You guys are definitely right to be mad at me! Not shirking that at all. I appreciate that I fucked up real bad. I'm doing my best to make sure it gets re-distributed with good compilation & with the folks omitted who wished to be.
@adhdedteach@ManicZebra they did offer! I apologize. I didn't ignore them, I just never really managed to square away what needed sending and when. I accept full responsibilty.