j (locked tf in)

18 , he/him (🏳️‍⚧️) ;; cw: huge , lw: 118.4 (lbs) stonerexic ;; pro recovery , anti haes

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

oh wow this is so triggering cus wtf imagine being told u have “mild” anorexia?? 😭

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

the battle of wondering if i should eat to avoid binge urges later or wait it out and risk the binge for some more hours of fasting..like cus what if i dont binge then ill have fasted for so many hours and eat so dainty n little and i can be best ana

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

i hold so much weight in my lower stomach and i hate it 🫩🫩

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

im so excited for the cookie butter latte at dunkin omfg it’s so many cals but idc ill omad it or smth

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

@klearkals it heavily depends on how active ive been that day. if ive just like chudded around and got less than 5k steps ill try to do 400-600 ish, if i get 10k+ or workout i’ll allow myself 1k! (but i remind myself that’s a limit not a goal so i’ll do less than that if i can)

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

@evelxynnnz i would def try eating at least 800-1000 cals instead of going that low. you’ll see numbers drop fast yes but ur not very likely to be consistent due to the binge urges that come w such heavy restriction :(( like 1k cals per day means u could be around 150 lbs by christmas!!!

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

ive been keeping an ed journal or whatever and it has been so helpful for locking in this relapse. like being able to write down all my thoughts makes them so much easier to handle and way less likely to give in to them (like binge thoughts yk)

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

dropped 5 pounds in 8 days even tho 4 of those days i ate prob around 1.5k cals. life might be worth living 🥰

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

idk why i used to torture myself by weighing in every day and tweaking out over any slight fluctuation. weighing urself once or twice a week is the method

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

@rattiesrat EEK OMG GOOD LUCK

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

@AXto_bones @Papa_Fable @xr_fai_tc LMFAO

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

love hate relationship with the DGE’s bmi scale bc 19 is already uw but 24 is already ow 🫩

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

like u could get slimed out or hailed as an ed god for the same post depending on the month

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

i don’t get the ppl who post “edrtwt is so nice now” or “edrtwt is so mean now” bc both sides exist constantly tbh it’s just every once in a while the level of “acceptable” meanness changes

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

@jifixed @xr_fai_tc yw bro 💯💯

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

@hav8509 @xr_fai_tc OFFFCCCCCC

[Moonlight// EDRTWT✡️ @Moonlightzloves]

please tell me I’m not the only one in this starving community that doesn’t know anything about kpop

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

am i crazy or does anyone else remember on tiktok where in like 2021 there would be days where only plus sized people could post and if u posted urself and u weren’t plus sized that day you’d be canceled i think it was for cosplayers but LMAO

[j (locked tf in) @kitttycalz]

i had like 5 separate dreams about me binging and eating like 10,000 cals wtf 😭😭😭