Virtual diary for my motivation 💌
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I want my pfp's body
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height: 5'3, 160cm
current weight: 119lb, 53.98kg
goal weight: 99-102lb, 44.9-46.2kg. :@
This is how I want to be, the opposite of what I am now.
I decided that if I so badly want a new friend like I claim, then I should actually put more effort into it, so I'm remedying myself starting now. (mostly online)
All the way around actually. I tell myself “wow I’m so skinny, I get full so quickly and can eat anything and don’t even gain!” AND IT FUCKING WORKS IF YOU BELIEVE IT HARD ENOUGH!!! Brain is actually so fascinating
I feel so fake because I never purge, binge, I eat 1500 cals, don’t do 10k steps and prefer working out, I have never been below BMI 16 and don’t want to be, I eat healthy food and focus on nutritions. Yet I have ED over a decade :/ What am I then