🇰🇿Alphys

17 - memtally ill bleh - they/any ▪︎ multifandom - TONETAGS NEEDED PLS

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

Hi so ts'll be added on my strwpg later but mby i should already say dat im very OCDpilled n even the smallest thingy can make me go into panic n overthinking mode and I cannot control myself well in such state, keep dat in mind If u see me post n say weird shit out of nowhere

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I won't be able to live peacefully with so much trauma, I am very easily triggered by the smallest shit that reminds me of it, I just won't survive like ts it'll be a torture

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I'm getting worse every year, keeping me alive is like keeping a hardly wounded or sick animal alive instead of putting it down

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I'm getting worse every year, keeping me alive is like keeping a hardly wounded or sick animal alive instead of putting it down

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

And I dont wish to hear anything abt keeping myself alive, its my decision, final decision

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

Forget it, gofund me isn't aviable in our fuckass country.

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I'm so sorry God

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

And I dont wish to hear anything abt keeping myself alive, its my decision, final decision

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I dont even know if gofyndme is a good idea cuz I dont even plan on living that long anyway so what's the point people will spend money on someone who's gonna die soon

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I dont even know if gofyndme is a good idea cuz I dont even plan on living that long anyway so what's the point people will spend money on someone who's gonna die soon

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

How come I have my best friend understand the way I act more than my own fucking f*mily? HOW. HOW

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

Nobody truly knows what I am and how I feel, yet everybody claims to know everything about me

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

My head hurts so much its awful, my stomach feels like throwing up, I'm exhausted from crying and yelling so much and hearing all those nasty lies about me

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

My head hurts my head hurts

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I hate this, I hate that some people have better life than me, I just dont understand why couldn't I deserve that too. Was my sin to be born? I dont understand? I keep asking yet I never get an answer? Should I go to church? Who's going to answer me already I can't take ts anymr

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

You know ive been beaten up my whole childhood and she'll still deny that and say im lying

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I dont know man I feel like calling mental hospital again but gosh I dont know its 1 week left till school I was supposed to go to new class dat didnt knew what a piece of shit my life and mental health is

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I'm tired I am so damn tired. Everytime I only manage to take one kind of meds or jst a few n its always the ones that dont even have lethal dose i hate myself so fucking much for not trying more I hate myself so much that im scared of what's coming after

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

Once again I sacrificed safety over freedom, I could've just stay living at mental hospital but I asked to get out because oh I missed freedom so much

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

It's all my fault at some point tho, if I just managed to take more meds back then I wouldn't be relieving all of ts hell right now again, I wouldn't be sitting here traumatized once more bleeding on the floor, or if I at least just stayed in the mental hospital for longer

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

It's all my fault at some point tho, if I just managed to take more meds back then I wouldn't be relieving all of ts hell right now again, I wouldn't be sitting here traumatized once more bleeding on the floor, or if I at least just stayed in the mental hospital for longer

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

My whole body is made of cvts I find more help in shedtwt even than ts hell of a family ever did I can't take ts anymore, 7 years 7 years ive been cvtung ive been planing on ending it all yet I'm still here why why why why didnt I die when there was so many opyions

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

I genuinely can't take ts anymore my whole life I grew up in constant tears constant victim blaimjmg yall dont know how tired I am how sick I am how much I prayed to be dead every single night

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

Commissions arent and option anymore. If I dont manage to kms today or ts week I'll open gofundme. I just got abused once again by that fucking Satan of a woman

[🇰🇿Alphys @kkirobun]

Commissions arent and option anymore. If I dont manage to kms today or ts week I'll open gofundme. I just got abused once again by that fucking Satan of a woman

[shay 🍉 @holthyde_]

A positive portrayal of a lesbian couple including a fat girl and a black girl gagged middle school me.