𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼

.˚⊹. ࣪𓉸 ࣪⊹˚. BPD || They/Them || Old ࣪ ִֶָ☾. Minors DNI .˚⊹. ࣪𓉸 ࣪⊹˚.
#shtwt ✧ #shedtwt 𝓶𝔂 𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓼｡･:*˚:✧｡

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

In the end, I'm the bad guy. I always do everything wrong. No one else can be at fault 🫠

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

I feel so fake & unreal. Sometimes, I just stare at my hands because they don't feel like my own, even though their connected to my body 🫠

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Please be aware that the @Rayrieyyu / Rayrie account is still hacked! Do not fall for this! Stay safe 🖤

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

@vaIeriexxo I'd do around my shoulder area, that a t-shirt would cover. I would also just leave cuts that intentionally looked like it was caused by a cat/dog all around my body. As I had pets growing up & could use them as the reasoning.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Honestly, I'm just done. Why can't I be happy?? I have an okay home & relationship. But I'm forcing myself to be positive. I just want to revert & rot. I'm tired of just having scars & nothing fresh.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

It's funny being older & being even more worse off.
Thought they said things get better with time.. That was 10 years ago.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

I've been falling for a long time. I wonder if I'm getting close to rock bottom.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

I feel so see-through.
People just looking right through me & not even at me.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

I just want to be in the lime light for once.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Time will keep moving.
Surroundings will change.
Yet you stay the same.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

A king is allowed to get away with murder. A commoner on the other hand..

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Created to be social.
Forced to be alone.
Created to have feelings.
Forced to push them down.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Convince me why I should keep doing this, why I should keep going.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Useless.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Don't wanna be here, but I am.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

You received gifts & were surrounded by friends. Yet I'm the bad guy.

[𝓚𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓼 𝓦𝓮𝓪𝓴𖥸𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓑𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓼 @kneesareweak]

Close to the edge, I just want to jump. Please let me jump.