𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

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𝘪𝘧 𝘪 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝙇𝙊𝙎𝙀 𝘺𝘰𝘶 , 𝘪’𝘥 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝙈𝙔𝙎𝙀𝙇𝙁 . . .
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[ꨄ @lostaffections]

tell me, which do you love more? me, or the blood on your hands?

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

i have awoken from my sleep

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

/ no, im not saying you can't dislike it. i dislike season 2.

but like as someone. whose favourite game is the last of us part 2, and it means so much to me. can y'all grow tf up and learn to deal with shit normally without harassing people you don't like

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

/ having been a few months since TLOU S2 finished and taking a step back, it's made me realise how much tlou fandom sucks 😭

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

/ tlou pt2 says: have empathy, see different perspectives

tlou fandom does: harass and send personal attacks to the people involved in S2 cus it didn't do what they wanted

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

hurt you both . if i could go back , i-- i'd do it a lot differently . but i was a mess , Dina . and i was just good at pretending i wasn't . "

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

( she gives a sigh of both frustration and tiredness . how can she make Dina understand ? she regrets leaving , of course , but how can she make her understand that it was better for them that she left ? she wasn't in a state to be a parent . . . she was forcing herself »

[* ︎ ︎ ︎ 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 ︎ ︎ 𝓰𝐢𝐫͟𝐥. @motherlyhabits]

" ..and that means you get to make decisions like that without even talking to me first or at least considering our feelings? just because you think we’re better off? "

﹝ dina —

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

to keep going , just for them . something was going to break eventually )

" look me in the eyes and tell me that he would've been better off with me , having fucking panic attacks , screaming while holding him ! Dina- "

a deep breath . calming herself .

" i'm sorry i »

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

" hey , i'm the one that does the dumb jokes around here , "

she gives an exaggerated sigh and another fake roll of her eyes , before glancing back to Dina with a stupid grin .

" buuuut . . . yeah , go ahead . only 'cause you made breakfast , "

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

her eyes linger on their baby for a few extra moments , before another kiss is stolen by Dina . she gives a soft chuckle at her statements , tilting her head into her soft hand as she cups her cheek . making a small noise as her cheek is pinched by her girlfriend .

»

[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ⋆ 𝕯𝓲͟𝐧͟𝒂 .ᐟ @endurestrauma]

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her hands reaches up, gently lifting to cup ellies cheek, thumb brushing over her freckles. thumb &. index fingers then gently, playfully pinching her cheek.

❝ JJ may or may not have helped. ❞

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[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

" you're pretty greedy today , "

her gaze falls to JJ again . " your mama is a glutton , " she fake-whispers to the baby , earning a giggle . he had no idea what she said , but he doesn't care .

she gives a playful eye roll as Dina offers a joke , giving her a look .

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[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

" you didn't do anything . neither did Tommy .

i . . . i just couldn't deal with it anymore . the nightmares . the panic attacks .

after the barn with JJ , i realised you two were better off without me , "

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

" we were , "

( her reply is quick ; too quick . she knows Dina too well to think that she's just going to let it go )

" we were happy . i was happy . . . when i wasn't thinking about Abby . or Joel . and that was basically never . "

( a sniff , and another sigh )

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[* ︎ ︎ ︎ 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 ︎ ︎ 𝓰𝐢𝐫͟𝐥. @motherlyhabits]

to choose.

her expression softened a little at the other’s look of defeat, letting another sigh leave her lips. hand floating upwards to rub her temples. ﹞

" i —

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

an apology was the least that i owed you , after everything . "

( another pause . she just wanted to talk to Dina . she doesn't know what else to say )

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

( not even flinching as she hears and feels the anger in her voice . the pure emotion seeping from her words . she simply gives a deep sigh , looking to the ground and avoiding eye contact )

" i know . i wasn't-- i didn't expect you to just forgive me . i just thought »

[* ︎ ︎ ︎ 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 ︎ ︎ 𝓰𝐢𝐫͟𝐥. @motherlyhabits]

tightening as emotion washed over her. she was angry. ﹞

" ..no. no, ellie. you don’t get to do this. you don’t get to leave us like that, come back, and expect me to forgive —

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

would do . )

" i know how little sorry would mean , but . . . i am sorry . i shouldn't have left you and JJ , "

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

( she winces at the statement , remembering their last conversation . thinking of the right words to say is especially hard , but she's trying her very best to find them . )

" shit , i- "

( she freezes . what is there to say ? that she's sorry ? fat lot of good that »

[* ︎ ︎ ︎ 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 ︎ ︎ 𝓰𝐢𝐫͟𝐥. @motherlyhabits]

composure. being friendly to the other wasn’t going to be easy, but she had to at least humor her. ﹞

" what is there to talk about? i thought our last conversation went pretty —

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

Ellie , but it hasn't been that long really . )

" i . . . thought we should talk , "

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

( she rolls back and forth on her heels for a few moments as time seemingly freezes . she takes a deep breath , exhaling deeply as Dina turns around .

she doesn't look much different from when she left her , if a little tired . it's heartbreaking ; it felt like ages for »

[* ︎ ︎ ︎ 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 ︎ ︎ 𝓰𝐢𝐫͟𝐥. @motherlyhabits]

﹝ as soon as dina heard her voice, she felt a wave of emotion wash over her. the sound was familiar, yet foreign. she hated it and loved it at the same time.

she hesitantly —

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

that right now .

she stops , having ended up closer to her than intended , as she'd started to drift off into daydreams as she tried to push her own thoughts back . )

" D- Dina ? "

[𝐄𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴 @knifezombs]

( her mind was racing , thoughts flooding over each other helplessly as she tries her best to stay focussed on the here and now ; but it's difficult . she can't help but think about what Dina's reaction to her presence could be . anger , fear even ? she can't think about »

[* ︎ ︎ ︎ 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 ︎ ︎ 𝓰𝐢𝐫͟𝐥. @motherlyhabits]

couple of moments of consideration, she sighed, stopping dead in her tracks. it was time to bite the bullet. she couldn’t put this off any longer. ﹞