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[kniveszz @kniveszz]

I feel like I'm so easy to manipulate, not that im gullible or anything but I'd be willing to do anything that they'd want me to do, I see all through it but I still go along with it because I don't want to feel alone, to try and make them know that I'm capable enough for them

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

I feel like I can take any level of disrespect and I would still forgive you, do the worst to me and I'll still forgive you.. I hate how I'm like this but my heart is so full of mercy that I can't bring myself to feel as if they deserve it

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

i see so many people around me that radiates positiveness wherever they go, had i grown up around better people would i have become someone like that?,.,.. i hate myself. I can't even let myself loose no matter how hard i try its so suffocatinf im gonna cry why amni like this

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

god im gonna cry i cant even let myself loose, let alone love someone without hurting myself i hate this i haye this feeling

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

@zeSillyBS fart noises🤤

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

@zeSillyBS wtf wrong acc

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

@zeSillyBS niv mentioned

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

if i liked you i would literally reform myself just so i could be the ideal.. be more open to me and ill literally remove every flaw in how i talk, my little haptics n everythin in between,,,

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

liking someone is really scary, what if it turns into a replay of what i had in the past, the past that woke my heart up from a deep slumber after it was kept quiet for a long time only for it to shatter me??m,,, im scared soso scared because of it i wannacry

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

can someone fix me in the "i can fix her" type of way.. i feel like these past few months ive lacked people i can be comfy with and its just leading to me being really defensive,,, im trying to be vulnerable

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

crying bcz my minds way too active noticing every single detail can someone comfort me

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

it feels really odd watching a movie where they end off successful in their goal, i hate being given false hope that everything'll turn out fine

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

I don't know if this is selfish for me to say but I don't get how people can be unhappy even while the whole world's on their side, it pisses me off

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

im sostupid soso stupid forthinking iy was finally my time, ,

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

iactuallt hate myself somuchsosomuchsoomfucugshkdfufy

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

i try to stand out so much only to be reminded how uninteresting i really am, whenever i talk to people it feels as if im talking to people that really matter while i force my way into it, the me that has notjing fortheir future nor a hint of significance going for them

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

i dont think i have a single good trait in my system, i notice the smallest things about people's behaviors that make them unique although i don't think i have anything going for me at all, i suck at this,i dont thibk i was evr meant to live i dont deservf antthing

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

I hate seeing people with deep bonds into their friendship, it hurts so much knowing that no matter what I try to do I'll always be at rock bottom, I never manage to do achieve anything meaningful and whenever it comes close to that I ruin ithhbbrbdjdjjrjrjfkf

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

I feel like i can only build up friendships to a minimal extent, i genuinely feel like im so uninteresting that people don't even bother trying to find out more about me, like please do try,.,. I'm interesting aswell..m

[kniveszz @kniveszz]

even then i still feel like id be preparing for the worst, loving so defensively