Isobel

You're not sorry!

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

im so fucking ugly. and fat

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

feel sick 2 my stomach all the time 4 it.hes kind til he gets it,then fucks off when i get upset he yells & cuts me down.then i apologize...

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

i m pathetic, no guy wants me unless its just 4 sex. i allowed myself 2B played 4 over a year cuz i didnt want 2 belive it was true

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

i would never do it cuz i love my parents too much, but i wish i were dead...once my parents r gone, so am i...

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

i've been knocked for over a year...getting too tired to get up now..

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

y do all the good men have to be married or gay or just not that into u....

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

of course i couldnt get into detail...just said someone who pretebded to be my friend was very mean to me...he was so good to me....

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

went to baptismal class tonight cuz i want to become a good christian(havent had sex since i joined) and pastor knew something was up....

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

nite y'all....

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

must sleep.....all men i like don't like me...whats up with that..everyone finds their true love...maybe no one for me....hope he picks me

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

so....still waiting..seen him on pof though...it just makes me feel that he would rather throw me away in hopes something better comes along

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

but u cant control ur heart..i really like him and i feel such a connection....just dont like the fighting....never had fights with guys b4

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

never calling me afterwards, forwarded pers emails i sent him to his friends. reading this i should say no...my friends and fam say no....

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

am i stupid for waiting...or wanting him after all he's done to me...ignored me, yelled, goes on dating sites,told his friends pers details

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

ok...i guess persistance paid off, he finally answered his phone. hung up on me, then answered it again. he's thinking about a second chance

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

but it would be ok if i died... it really messes with ur self esteem and self worth... how do u get over it? meds havent kicked in yet..

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

stil being ignored & blocked.crying all weekend now.how can men play women.i m so depressed.i'd never kill myself cuz i luv my parents 2much

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

i saw him on a dating website and confronted him then he yelled at me and hung up...thats the last i ever heard from him...

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

i hate myself...final text turned into 2...this is like the tenth time we've done this but this is the last...that's y i am so upset

[Isobel @knockedsideways]

just sent the final text to him...no response yet...prob wont be one either..he doesnt care about me...just a player for sex