𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂

🔞a personal public journal🔞

mootless. not looking for moots. I dont answer DMs

recovery neutral

chronic shtwt lurker

⚠️TW: SH⚠️

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

I always think the harm I do to myself is never enough. So please, dont compare or try to replicate and take care of yourself. I only post here because it serves as an outlet and helps me feel seen. I don't want to be the reason for anyone trying to push themselves to go further.

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

I'm in really bad shape, aren't I?

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

i am a regret machine. came straight out of the regret factory

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

i keep thinking social interactions will get better but i just seem to be getting worse at them every year. i dont know what im doing wrong.

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

I ruined everything by being stupid

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

im the only mentally ill person who actually did just make everything up

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

would you forgive me if i spent the whole day sleeping again?

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

this is dog bone village

all sfw makeup, fake, ai generated.

#slittwt #ouchietwt #shrtwt

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

cruelty was the work
of these hands.

delusions of being good and kind
but i was nothing more.

careless
helpless
thing.

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

trying to find something to say without it sounding corny in my mind is hard

halloween makeup, ai generated, block dont report.

#slittwt #988twt #ouchietwt

[belle @espressobaddie]

does anyone else get anxious about texting someone back and then suddenly 10 days passed and the guilt of it just gets worse but ur like too paralyzed to do anything

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

when I die I'll wonder what it was all for

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

every day gets a little bit harder. despite my genuine efforts.

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

every single negative thing people have said to me repeating in my head 24/7 and the thing is they aren't even wrong.

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

it never feels like enough. never severe enough. never alarming enough.

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

every step forward made me walk two steps back. recovery is mathematically impossible. any attempt to get better just makes me and my situation worse

[𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒚𝒏𝒂 @knoynaaaaaaa]

full of all the things that makes life worth living

sfx makeup, ai generated