when you're scrolling twitter it is incredibly important upon seeing a take that you are absolutely disagree with to scroll tf away from it and not let the negativity burn every cell in your body and then go and look at the cat pics to recover from the brain damage
it feels so weird trying to get back into being online again after isolating myself for a few years and existing mostly in a bubble with friends, my social anxiety is skyrocketing every time I want to do more than leave a like on someone's post, but
@staynotyet I don't think I ever felt such an emotion listening to the audio like I did just now. it's like trying to poop from your ears but you are constipated, oh my god
I'm just so scared to live a life I'd want, it's so stupid and pointless and I'm so tired of myself constantly, hating everything I do and just myself as a whole
I don't understand how can I stop just existing and start actually living
I feel like I'll never know
I do want to engage with fandoms I'm in, I want to be a part of them, want to post art I made and not be afraid to interact with people, but everything feels so overwhelming and my depression keeps shutting my whole body down that I don't even know if it's all worth it