i remember summer 2025 iShowSpeed was in NYC and an ex-friend of mine wanted to stream snipe him in washington square.
we could’ve totally taken the opportunity to clip farm a viral moment with the biggest streamer in the world. but i knew that if i did so, i would’ve categorized myself as just another fan.
i told my ex-friend at the time that this was not the way I wanted to meet speed. I wanted to meet him in a professional setting, someway, somehow. i didn’t know how i was going to do it, but i manifested it briefly and sorta forgot about it after a few months.
a year later i’m behind the camera with ishowspeed in front of me, bringing that same ex-friend along for the opportunity that i forgot i even manifested a year prior.
and to be honest? im not even a grinder. i feel like many of the gigs i get are sheer luck. im grateful to have the opportunities i have now and the speed shoot was no exception. but irl im actually a lazy fuck at times and i hate myself for not putting as much effort into things as much as i could.
now i’m at a forefront. do i fuck off and enjoy my 20’s like everyone else? or do i sacrifice that youthful fun for a goal greater than me? the choice seems obvious but im scared of regretting that sacrifice later on.
i remember summer 2025 iShowSpeed was in NYC and an ex-friend of mine wanted to stream snipe him in washington square.
we could’ve totally taken the opportunity to clip farm a viral moment with the biggest streamer in the world. but i knew that if i did so, i would’ve categorized myself as just another fan.
i told my ex-friend at the time that this was not the way I wanted to meet speed. I wanted to meet him in a professional setting, someway, somehow. i didn’t know how i was going to do it, but i manifested it briefly and sorta forgot about it after a few months.
a year later i’m behind the camera with ishowspeed in front of me, bringing that same ex-friend along for the opportunity that i forgot i even manifested a year prior.
and to be honest? im not even a grinder. i feel like many of the gigs i get are sheer luck. im grateful to have the opportunities i have now and the speed shoot was no exception. but irl im actually a lazy fuck at times and i hate myself for not putting as much effort into things as much as i could.
now i’m at a forefront. do i fuck off and enjoy my 20’s like everyone else? or do i sacrifice that youthful fun for a goal greater than me? the choice seems obvious but im scared of regretting that sacrifice later on.