Realising that I do nothing for the enjoyment of it anymore.
Pain and depression have crippled me.
I do things to pass time, not for pleasure or enjoyment anymore.
Near total withdrawal from society.
I'm just filling in time, til my time runs out.
A sad, sore, broken man.
I'd love to know what younger generations are huffing, shelving in their ass, or having preached to them, to feed their fucking delusions.
I guarantee the majority of whinging bitches wouldn't live in a fucking unlined garage for 6 years, while they try and get on top of things.
I've cleaned toilets, serviced sanitary (tampon, pad, nappy, sharps) bins, I've cleaned urinals as a job.
Some paid well, but still not enough. Labour and truck driving paid best. But was also the most demanding.
It's because of family, that I even have a home, in my 40s.
Unavoidable recollection of that time "he who liked to give beatings" gave me a beating, because he told me to "shut the fuck up, sit over there and twiddle your thumbs for all I fucking care", and me, being scared I'd get a beating if I didn't obey, sat, and wiggled my thumbs...
*gets accused of trying to hit on/pick some random woman up
"I'm 45, broke, my back is fucked, and my dick don't work. So even if my back was fine, what the fuck exactly do you think I'd be trying to achieve? Conversation can just be conversation. Fuckhead."
*silence
@LGOLEDgaming It's a hard task, replacing the 38GL950G. But i'd be tempted by a 40ish inch 4k oled. So long as it gave me the 120hz, and colour accuracy. I'd be set. Be easier to record content too.
I think I might be healing up a bit. There's hope on the horizon. I sneezed, it hurt, but didn't hurt so much it made me wanna punch something. That's a good thing, right?
As much as life can be difficult at times, there's nothing quite like being tag teamed by extra shitty mental health, and particularly shitty physical health for a few months.
@greenfox1505@LinusTech Gamers Nexus also declared they'd no longer have same old relationship with LMG, but instead treat LMG as manufacturers going forward from that point. Even though they, themselves, are manufacturers.