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random bullshit

[s @kushmints_]

i was actually productive today and completed everything on my agenda, alr set my schedule for tomorrow as well. since i dont have a job rn i still feel like im doin nothin, but i am looking. i do like how i have the week off, i can use this time to better myself

[s @kushmints_]

when i move out of florida ima miss seeing these random rooster spottings

[s @kushmints_]

fell asleep but im planning my day out rn, first im gna put down everything i want to get accomplished today and then im gna work out the timing cuz doing both at the same time is hard

[s @kushmints_]

i wanted to gym today but my left shoulder is fucking killing me, i think i slept on it wrong but tmrw im fs gna gym

[s @kushmints_]

tn i also wna plan out my day because one thing that i want to change about my life is how uncoordinated i am. theres no real order and i want to set goals for myself everyday so that it actually feels like im working towards smth

[s @kushmints_]

i need to keep reminding myself that im not proud of me. i cant let myself be comfortable with where i am in life rn bc i really do want more, but i need to find the motivation to act on it

[s @kushmints_]

it JUST occured to me that gooning burns calories

[eve🦭 @777_peaches]

berdly voiceclaim

[s @kushmints_]

the two times ive been high on shrooms i was forced to face my own problems, but i was naive back then and didnt want to change. i also didnt think at the time id make it to 20 yrs old before killing myself. but i want to face myself again and actually do smth ab it this time

[s @kushmints_]

i think i need to take shrooms again

[s @kushmints_]

i dont think there is supposed to be a meaning to my existence. idk why im alive, but i want to find a reason to keep going because im not just going to kill myself.

[s @kushmints_]

i gotta stop worrying about losing her again, i never won her back. But it isnt about that. My feelings towards her having become unhealthy and I need to learn how to fix that. I keep wanting to go "back to normal" but i forgot "normal" is what drove her away in the 1st place

[s @kushmints_]

but how do i do it? how do i find purpose in life? how do i find the fucking motivation to be the best version of myself? why am i so okay with mediocrity?

[s @kushmints_]

@pfftstar oh shit nvm u do u, stay safe tho shi be scary out here

[s @kushmints_]

i genuinely feel so lost in myself rn

[Corn ✧⍣ @cornski]

funniest year ever bro wym a taco bell notes apology screenshot jus hit the tl