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Resting in peace on the sovereignty of my crown.

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I pray my future daughter never wonder what she has to fix for a man to love her.

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:)

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I became quieter not because life became gentle but because explaining my pain because heavier than carrying it so i made a home inside my own silence. The world called it maturity, i knew it as loneliness.

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Next two weeks is my birthday.

I used to wonder what id wish for and now im just wondering if i will make it through the day without feeling the weight of everything i have lost.

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Ive been surviving for so long that i forgot what it feels like to actually live.

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Maybe thats why certain words stay with us. Not because they were true but because they came from someone we wished understood us.

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Im not okay

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Tengok jelah sampai bila aku boleh endure this feeling

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I miss the version of me that still believed things would get better.

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Rindu papa

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Lepas ni memang aku anggap aku dah tak kisah je

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Why do i feel like something isnt right

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Numb

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So fucked in the head

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Everything is just complicated and suffocating

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I am mentally exhausted

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There is nothing left to drown out the ache i spend all day pretending not to carry.

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You will always be my favourite person

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Feeling numb

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I dont think anything is holding me anymore, not even myself.

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My Monday is barely starting yet but im already tired of it.