Got out of survival mode. Actually place God first. Let tomorrow worry for itself. Understand God will never leave me nor forsake me, having slower mornings, exercising as a routine instead of goal, eat healthier, stop drinking excessively, journal, more dates alone, etc.
The only reason I'm not drowning in my sorrows right now is because I strongly believe that everything that's happening is according to God's plan and I'm no longer getting in the way of that. I can't pray, walk by faith and be worried at the same time.
I've actually tasted trying to fix people, and I've tasted forcing the truth down their throats. I highly recommend not caring more about people's lives than they do. No one is your assignment.
Not even the ones you love.
I’m grown enough to know I ain’t the easiest to deal with. Life did its thing on me, so yeah… I overthink, I get triggered, I go quiet, and sometimes I don’t even explain it right. I need patience, that’s just real. But one thing about me tho... When I love, it’s genuine. I’ll still show up even when I’m not okay. My heart solid, intentions clean… and I don’t just walk away unless I’m pushed there 📌💯
Don’t borrow shame from the past. You are not that person anymore and you simply didn't know better. No reason to beat yourself up for it. All you can do is really do better.
in order to become a better person, you must first realize how horrible you really are. not in the dramatic sense, but in the quiet ways you sabotage yourself, repeat unhealthy patterns, hurt people who care about you, or tolerate what wounds you. you cannot grow if you keep pretending you're innocent in the story you created.
Respectfully, I do not go above and beyond for people like i use to anymore. I meet you as far as you meet me. I speak to you as much as you speak to me. I include you as much as you include me. I spent a long time overextending myself and feeling like I’m forcing bonds with people. I need reassurance and reciprocation 🤌🏽