lad

i need somewhere to scream

[lad @ladlynns]

every second im awake is miserable but i cant go to sleep

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tried to look into counseling at school but it costs money so i will indeed kill myself

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permanent solution for a permanent problem

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i rlly hope i can get my new job so i have less time to think about killing myself

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o también porque que oso como dirían en la rosa

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creo q la única razón por la que no me mato es pura flojera la neta

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getting worse at the only thing ur good at feels like

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want to ask my friends for help but that shits too embarrassing

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maybe in another life i was smart enough to be a chemist

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wasted so many years and so much money for a degree that wont even help me

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it truly is over for me theres no way i will ever get a job

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just got out of a class that made me even more suicidal and immediately got notified that my new kai razors have been delivered is this a sign

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there is a possibility somethings wrong with the water in my apartment im so excited i hope i get lead poisoning and die

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sometimes i jerk off not bc im horny but bc its much easier and faster than cutting

[𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑛 𝑜𝑓 𝑖𝑦𝑘𝑦𝑘𝑡𝑤𝑡 ⋆. 𐙚 ˚ @R1nn_3x33]

I forget not everyone thinks scars are beautiful

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i think the only thing stopping me from telling her is getting a god lecture in response thats not gonna help it'll make it worse actually

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*by mom i mean godmother that has taken care of me for the past 6~ years

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shits so bad i might even tell my mom* bro its over

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what do i need to do for someone to hug me tightly while they put a gun against my head and kill me

[lad @ladlynns]

i want a hug