elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

just me & my disordered thoughts | likes kpop (especially &team !!) ♡ | edtwt - diagnosed ednos

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

my comfort person ♡

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

@IRL_M1KUU happened to me when i used zero, i was so angry omg

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

it’s my birthday soon and my mom have sent me a package even though i broke contact with her 1.5 months ago, started crying like i’ve been stabbed

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

im so fucking sick of this

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

binged :) my stomach hurts, it feels like it’s going to explode, i feel the food up in my throat and i just wanna throw up. it even hurts to breathe because my stomach is so bloated

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

@koobicals will do, thank you 🩷🫂

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

sorry for being so inactive but I’m just not doing well mentally rn, so my energy to be on social medias have been literally dead. hope you guys are doing okay 🩷

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

@hyukcals_ tack vännen! 🩷 känner jag behöver en paus från sociala medier just nu

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

im spiraling so badly

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

@hyukcals_ första 2 veckorna är värst! jag är snart 2 månader snus fri men ibland får jag värsta craving för snus haha </3 men ge inte upp, you can do it 🙂‍↕️

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

fml vill ha snus so badly

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

i don’t like grocery shopping because i feel tempted by the food

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

i just wanna be skinny again

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

wish i could get drunk tonight but i promised to meet up for group work at 10am fml i just need to get numb for a bit

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

i will be completely alone on my birthday this year since i cut contact with my mom

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

@lw47d7 yeah that’s messed up, sorry about that

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

mourn every day that i never got to experience real teenage love

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

maybe i should just kms

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

i feel so gross i wanna rip my skin out

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

i cant even tell my closest friend that i struggle with food man

[elli 🦢 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @ladychane1]

god i’m so angry at myself that i did sh when i was younger, it’s been 10 years and my scars are still on my thighs. it makes me so insecure and feel gross. they will never fade 100% and it makes me so mad at myself. don’t do it kids