It’s time to be real.
I’ve fucked up my life to levels I never thought were possible a year ago.
Losing money in crypto is part of the game, it still fucking sucks but I understood that and accepted that. But things irl have also gone completely to shit over the last 6 months.
The company I work for was sold to a private equity controlled entity around the end of last year. Initially this seemed to be a no big deal change in ownership that allowed the founder of this company to cash out and retire… and for the first few months it was.
But slowly things began to deteriorate and changes started happening that started to ring the alarm bells.
As I’ve alluded to previously I’ve been looking for a new job. I can’t stay here. It’s not sustainable. They’ve cut mine and most of the other management teams hours down to a maximum of 25 a week.
Initially I said alright I guess it’s time to find a new job… that was 3 months ago now. Ive applied to at least 100 jobs (actually qualified for with experience beyond their qualifications) , had 7 interviews total, and gotten ghosted more times than I can count. I still have probably 15 applications out right now on good jobs, but they don’t close for another week at least.
I’ve also tried to ramp up bookings for my photography business even offering discounts for basically everything and nobody is booking a shit.
I’ve burned through every dollar I’ve had saved both in my bank account and in my retirement account, borrowed money from friends and family and maxed out every card I have and sold off my cars just to keep the ball rolling while hoping that something would finally break my way.
It’s just been a downward spiral since 10/10 and I’m at place now that it makes me physically sick to think about and deeply ashamed and embarrassed to even post.
But I am writing this for two reasons..
1) as a cautionary tale to others. If and when you experience life changing money in this casino, change your life. Don’t be a retard and round trip it all and especially don’t be a retard by idiotic things that you can’t afford.
I did both.
2) I’m actually really fucked right now and if I don’t come up with $4k to pay the landlord I’m not sure where we will be living soon.
I know I don’t deserve it but I realistically am out of options. If you can help in any way (either with a job lead in the Seattle area or throwing your boy a few dollars) I’ll do everything I can to pay it back and pay it forward as soon as I can.
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