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Postgrad researcher in Child & Adolescent Behavioral Psychiatry.
Doctor, teacher, and a lifelong servant to cats 🐈

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

Academia/Psych/Med/Study twt:

If you're a postgraduate or someone who's interested in research and critically reading papers and want someone to listen to you yap about it, and listen to someone else yap about it, hmu. 🙋🏽‍♀️

[Candace D. @DiaryofaSickGrl]

So many nights I’ve gone to bed with a new plan for life, an idea for a new hobby, or a new workout plan and so many mornings I’ve woken up completely humbled by chronic illness again.

[Sassyhomo @clcisme]

Nothing weeds out real friends from fair weathered ones like chronic illness and disability. What a lesson.

[𝓐 ⭑ @ayojoestar]

CPTSD is fun because it makes you feel like you’re going to throw up anytime you know you need to voice your needs.

[nav @hoaxriver]

if men can't call a footballer a rapist do you really think they will call their friends rapists and cut them off????

[Vivian @suchnerve]

Trauma will have you thinking nonsense like “Am I being manipulative by communicating with honesty and transparency?”

[tradenip @rossisongo]

High af. As a touch deprived child it took me so long to realize my dog just wants me to pet him for no reason sometimes. I’m like you are fed, housed, and appear to be fully functioning. Why r u in my face. I had not accounted for the rest of love. Love to me was only surviving.

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

@ThePOTSPostman Exactly. I constantly refer to myself as a living corpse on a good day, and a decaying one when I can barely function.

[MAJOR @Squeeze1i]

It's weird how autism explanations usually arrive after you've already spent years blaming yourself for everything.

[thereisnobeth @thereisnobeth]

it does seem like there's always an underclass of women who are acceptable targets for male violence. Rape and violence towards "real women" is unacceptable but sex workers/foreign women/trans women aren't "real women"

[⚜️Sovereign⚜️ @sauvamemte]

And if I’m being honest, I’m only open to friendships with people who have stood up to their parents at least once before because at least I know you’re fucking honest

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

@farbeyondtired Struggling with the same thing. Half of the time is spent dying, half of it is trying to ask for help or convincing other people you're not lying, and all of the time is tinged with the guilt of being a burden and the grief of wasting my life.

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

@Squeeze1i @autisticswana I'm in my villain era after realizing that I was on the brink of death and everyone around me could only think about how useful I could be to them. Permanently shifted something in me. Even thinking of socializing with people now makes me want to puke.

[MAJOR @Squeeze1i]

THE AUTISTIC URGE TO NOT REGISTER RED FLAGS AS RED FLAGS BECAUSE YOU’RE SO USED TO PEOPLE MISINTERPRETING YOUR HARMLESS BEHAVIOURS AND YOU DON’T WANT TO DO THAT TO ANYONE ELSE, SO YOU GO OVERBOARD TRYING TO FIND ACCEPTABLE EXPLANATIONS FOR OTHER PEOPLE’S UNACCEPTABLE BEHAVIOUR.

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

When I'm hyperfocused, i can read 3 papers a day with critical analysis straight for 3 weeks. When i shut down, it's either god or actual death if i move a muscle before atleast 3 months are up.
This is "on medication" btw lol.

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

True.
I've been thinking about quitting my degree and running away because my progress has been so slow I think I've disappointed, or worse, wasted my supervisor's time and energy, and my brain is convinced she hates me, and I still can't do the basic shit i have to do.

[DeeDee - ADHD Helper @DopaminePlsMe]

When people say "everyone is a little ADHD" I always want to be like oh word? you also frequently lose the physical ability to start basic tasks and just sit in a paralyzing cycle of shame while your life falls apart? or did you just forget where you put your keys?

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

Because of fatigue and chronic illnesses, i delayed applying for ethical review for 5 months, i task i later completed earlier this month in 40 minutes.
All my joy for research has been drained because of this inability to "just start".

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

@BayouMystere You can't win either way

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

@BayouMystere I was a med student who knew the lingo and would make a clinical case for my symptoms only to be met with " you're trying to have diseases you read about.
Wasn't until I became severe that doctors acknowledged, then it was "you're a doctor, you should have noticed it sooner"

[🍉 @lalehrooh]

@BayouMystere Istg
Like I'm supposed to synpathize and give you answers when your treatment of me was literally akin to leaving me for dead -.-