Also really tired of hearing how calm I am. Know what’s not calm - the internal raging scream of panic that is inside my head at all times while at work.
When you make an effort to not let others see your stress while at work it really sucks when all you want to do is fall apart and cry because you can’t possibly get all the work done in a reasonable timeframe.
But on the plus side Bethany Consentino of @BestCoast has been popping up on my TikTok feed and … and it’s made it that much lovelier. Off to bury these feelings in another cup of coffee.
Work related crying is some of the worst type of crying. It doesn’t feel cathartic. It doesn’t feel good. It somehow makes me feel even worse. Yet. Here we are. The no cry clock resets to zero people.
Is it possible to drink too much coffee? The answer is no. Coffee is always the answer. Some might say a coffee shop in my building is dangerous. I say it’s like coming home. I haven’t had enough yet. Today’s schedule of hearings suck.
To know me is to know that I spend a lot of time doubting myself, second guessing and overthinking. I don’t think I will ever fully get over that. But I did just tell Mr. Imposter Syndrome to fuck off. So maybe it’s all about baby steps.
I decided to listen to something new as I work to reclaim my Apple Music algorithm away from my children. I ended up on the Jimmy Eat World deep cuts. In case you’re wondering how I feel about today.
Today in the life of this municipal attorney: after offering a potentially doable solution to a problem, an attorney offered to buy me a cold beer. Then I spent roughly an hour trying to figure out what happens to unclaimed bodies. Now I’m getting lectured about unpaid bills.
And they were shocked at us being able to access such old records. Because they can’t do that on the west coast. And … I don’t know why that reaction is still in my head an hour later. But welcome to my brain folks.
Someone conducting genealogical research reached out today about locating records from the early 1800s. Told them we probably had them. Would just take some time to locate them.
Why does making mom friends feel more awkward than dating? Related: why does trying to arrange play dates incite such great anxiety? And why are they called play dates?
Trying to schedule an appointment with a GI for my 5 year old. First available date is in September. Not even a new patient appointment. And it has happened with other offices. That whole universal health care will just mean longer wait times argument is a bunch of malarkey.