Lae

A shy dork in Texas that loves webcomics, video games, art, rocks, and anime. Loves cats and moths.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

That feel when your fragile will to live breaks first thing in the morning after waking.

Thanks Mom for reminding me that money is the only thing that matters.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Honestly, dying passively kinda sucks sometimes. I mean, cause you wanna tell people how bad you feel. How living feels pointless when literal purgatory lives around us. #talkingtomyself

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

What is life if you can't be how you were born to be?

Inner turmoil like a storm at sea with the mask of a smile. That's slowly killing your soul and body in a way no one can see until... It's too late. You're already dying. #talkingbymyself

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

What do you call a feeling of nothing but it still has a sort of feel to the nothing? Like its neither here nor there it just exists. #talkingtothevoid

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

I dunno who to tell this to to be honest. Sleep Token is amazing and is it just me or is it meant to feel so relatable and personal? #talkingintothevoid

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Another day I woke up again, wish I would just not wake up again.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

How does one ask for help? When does one ask for help? I mean, I don't know. I can't figure it out.

Cause I'm mentally and emotionally checked out on life. I'm just waiting for my body to crash finally. It's taking so long just for my body to fail. Why won't it just...fail?

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

https://t.co/KJsLAexbse

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

It's kinda sad that it's coming to living just to get your affairs in order.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Just had a thought: Life is all cycles. We are watching a lamb turn into a wolf. IYKYK

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Just some nice sunset pics

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Honestly, I'm just so tired...

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

I know it's getting pretty pointless asking any more. Maybe this time I might get a donation. Maybe...

https://t.co/HYEjWstvCQ

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

This is for cremation, forgot to clarify.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

So it looks like the funeral stuff will probably be $3k for basic direct service and $4k if I want it a little fancy

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Did you know you can pre pay your funeral expenses? I didn't know that.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

And I am aware no one cares. This is a world of apathy after all. All I'm doing is recording the last of my life.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Down to 193lbs I seem to be losing a pound a day

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

I think... I might try returning to art. Start drawing stuff again.

[Lae @lanaeoflight]

Sometimes... A good sulk is good for the soul. It just means you've felt your pain and the work on it.