“Why are we afraid of the first time? Every day in life is a first time. Every morning is new. We never live the same day twice. We're never afraid of getting up every morning. Why?”
i believe in re-reading and re-watching your favourite books & movies at different stages of your life. the plot never changes, but your perspective does.
so i asked a classmate for help. i rmb feeling grateful that someone was willing to tell me what i had missed. only later did i discover that she had deliberately given me the wrong instructions. by then, i had wasted 336 hours on work that was never going to count for anything.
i missed the class when the professor handed out a book review assignment. the only reason i learned abt it was because he reminded the class of the deadline. that prof has always been firm about his teaching philosophy: if you miss a class, the lesson won't be repeated for you.
I think we were meant to live more slowly. Not constantly stimulated. Not glued to screens. Not rushing through every moment like life is a competition. We were meant for ordinary things. Afternoon walks with nowhere to be. Watching the rain with a warm cup of tea. Falling asleep while reading. Trying things, sucking at them, and still enjoying them anyway. But modern life convinced us that every second must be optimized. Every hobby monetized. Every moment productive. And honestly, I think that’s why so many people feel disconnected from themselves now. Because the soul doesn’t need constant excitement. It needs slowness.
Presence. What it really needs is peace. Little moments that make you feel quietly alive.
I don’t want a loud life anymore. I don’t want constant hustle, anxiety, noise, or the feeling that I’m always running late to something. I want a slow life. Quiet morning coffee while the world is still asleep. Long walks in nature with no destination. Cooking healthy meals with lo-fi in the background. Reading thick books that take weeks to finish. Spending time with people who feel like peace, not performance. A life where I can focus deeply on one thing and slowly master it without rushing the process. No chaos. No pretending. No need to impress anyone. Just a calm, meaningful, low-key life that actually feels like mine.
What you do in private, shows in public. Reading shows in a conversation. Your diet shows in energy. Your discipline shows in confidence. Your focus shows in your results. You are what you cultivate when no one is watching. Prioritize your time & focus on discipline/consistency.