Lara Arthur

just an open heart waiting for someone who knows how to read it ♡

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

No will to live

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

The moment you realize you wanna call a number just to talk to someone you don’t know to feel better is worrying

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Sometimes I wish I was not a sensible person
With moments that all I wanna do is sit in my bedroom
Pouring my feelings out
Or I just wish I didn’t hide all of them
In some sort of vault
Cause right now I just wish I didn’t feel anything

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

“And every time I try to fly I fall without my wings
I feel so small”

(Everytime - Britney Spears)

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Feel your feelings
Express your feelings
Talk about your feelings
But always remember to feel them

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Funny how some moments I have some realizations abt my life

Today, was abt me not being able to talk about bad feelings to anyone but myself… and to keep them is terrifying

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

I’ve noticed today that my circle of friends has officially changed… I don’t know what to think abt it.

I just know that I’ve felt guilty for not sending a happy bday text to her and now I’m feeling bad for not knowing she’s back in town and throwing a party… kinda broke me

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

I hate the feeling that in not enough.
Just because of this opportunity, I’m feeling like the worst person in the world.
And now I was rude by accident with one of my best friends and I think she hates me, and I would hate me.

Maybe I’m better off alone.

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Okay, maybe I’m kinda liking being a part of it

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

It doesn’t even matter if I don’t get it
Really, it doesn’t
But I’m not ready for the other one either

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Keep smiling
Keep hiding
Keep pretending
Maybe someday you’ll believe in all your lies

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Have you ever felt like the world is against you?
Like, small things can turn into signs that something is wrong but you really can’t tell cause you’re not into other people’s mind.
Well… I’m feeling like I’m a little off now… like I’m missing something

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

And once again i feel alone…

Thank god i have my books to escape this world

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Raindrops falling
Almost sleep time
And just like a lullaby
Deep in my sleep I shall meet
The one I’ve been waiting all day to see

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

The pictures in my mind are getting mixed up while my tears flood my eyes

I see good things

Lots of them

But the bad things…

Oh, there’s only them now.

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

And the thing is… all I want to do now is cry and feels like it will never stop

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

It’s so sad when a small momento from your day makes the other great ones feel so small or even pointless

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

I must be the worst human being on earth to be treated like that by my own father…

[Lara Arthur @laramarthur]

Even now when I’m around 20 people I’m still feeling left out… how?