Sometimes I wish I was not a sensible person
With moments that all I wanna do is sit in my bedroom
Pouring my feelings out
Or I just wish I didn’t hide all of them
In some sort of vault
Cause right now I just wish I didn’t feel anything
Funny how some moments I have some realizations abt my life
Today, was abt me not being able to talk about bad feelings to anyone but myself… and to keep them is terrifying
I’ve noticed today that my circle of friends has officially changed… I don’t know what to think abt it.
I just know that I’ve felt guilty for not sending a happy bday text to her and now I’m feeling bad for not knowing she’s back in town and throwing a party… kinda broke me
I hate the feeling that in not enough.
Just because of this opportunity, I’m feeling like the worst person in the world.
And now I was rude by accident with one of my best friends and I think she hates me, and I would hate me.
Maybe I’m better off alone.
Have you ever felt like the world is against you?
Like, small things can turn into signs that something is wrong but you really can’t tell cause you’re not into other people’s mind.
Well… I’m feeling like I’m a little off now… like I’m missing something
The pictures in my mind are getting mixed up while my tears flood my eyes
I see good things
Lots of them
But the bad things…
Oh, there’s only them now.