no one talks about how draining it is when your mood is constantly switching between "its okay, i don't care. I'll be okay" and "I don't know how much more I can take"
No disrespect to anyone, but God please don't send me another partner who doesn't know how to communicate, take accountability, or emotionally show up. I don't want a partner who's still battling their own issues, avoiding healing, depressed, or emotionally unavailable and refusing help. I don't want a partner who can't stand firm, speak with clarity, or take control of their own life.
Micro cheating is cheating. If you're talking to someone else without your partner knowing, then that's cheating. If you're going out with someone who's not a friend or not blood-related and your partner doesn't know, that's also cheating. If you're joking around with someone in a flirty way, that's cheating too.If you're flooding someone's inbox with messages without your partner knowing, that's cheating as well, especially if you're deleting the conversation because you don't want your partner to get mad. Well, that's also cheating, darling.
I really owe myself an apology. For staying in places where I felt I wasn't wanted, but chose to hold on anyway. For trying to fix bonds that were already dead. For putting people first who would never have done the same for me. I knew better, but I kept giving chances. I kept showing up for folks who didn't appreciate me. So now I'm holding myself accountable, because I should.